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Project Inspiration: the boyfriend, Chris Hynes

As I dig deep and look into who I really am, I look into who I invest my time with and how they have moved me in what I have called Project Inspiration.

I wanted to take this time to tell you how my boyfriend, Chris Hynes has inspired me and been a part of my life evolution.  He is the make-my-heart-beat-faster-life-adventure-personal-iron-chef-always-says-i-love-you-caring-strong-family-loving-very-sexy-stand-for-greatness-slow-down-to-enjoy-life boyfriend in my life.

And he is the one that inspired me to embark upon this adventure that is Project Inspiration. 

We were sitting at Starbucks.   I was feeling so lost.  I had this strange feeling of not being enough and there was this large gray cumulus cloud parked right over my head.  How that ugly cloud got there and pulled the parking brake to a heavy hault, I do not know.  So, Chris looked at me over his homework and then took the time and closed the computer.  He said to me, “take your pen and write down all the names of people that have inspired you, shaped who you are and that you are thankful for”.  So, I began to list them out one by one – he reminded me of a few.  And then he told me, “tell them why, maybe it will show you the way”….

Dear Chris Hynes,

I love our love story.  From meeting you our first year in college in the dorms to emails from Australia, to post-college long distance friendships lasting over gchat, to carefully selected mix tapes, a surprise “I love you” bomb to a surprise long distance relationship and to a surprise “I am moving there to be with you and this is happening” into a no surpirse…amazing life adventure together. 

I love you. 

I love you. 

I love you.

What I wanted to let you know, Chris, is that who you are has and continues to shape who I am every single day.

You. Inspire. Me.  You literally create your life every single day.  From going back to school for a dream job and your dream life, to riding the crazy rollercoaster that has been our love adventure, to the recent plunge to California and for taking a sturdy and strong stand for your “best life”.  I look to you for that reminder to keep creating mine – even when it might be scary, even when it might take sharp turns or fast drops, cross country moves and even when it seems impossible – you are my possible.  Thank you for being that stand for you and for me.

Even though I argue and pompously shout from the rooftops that I said “I love you” first – it was truly you who said it first.  Maybe not out loud or even with your own words…but you said it first.  Be it a mix tape with love songs, a plane ticket to see about a girl or never giving up on my interesting ways; thank you for loving me and not being scared to show it first.  Your ability to be vulnerable has inspired me to be more emotional, more compassionate and more open to you, to others and to myself.

Chris, you are my restart button, my feet on solid ground, my moment to breathe. I believe my ways as an achiever and to do lister, wear whatever I want, follow the rules type, be great and goal set are what make me radical and what make me crazy.   But life gets funny when you become a ‘we’; your life shifts in the most beautiful way, if you allow it.  Thank you for the earthquake of a shift you have been in my life and for the always available restart button, fresh inhale and being my someone to lean on.  I am so grateful for who you are.

And finally, I just love you because.  And that is it, simple and confusing, small and big, cool and nerdy.   I don’t have the right answer all the time, or the why behind everything, or the aggressive plan of attack – I just love you because I absolutely, definitely love you. 

Chris, you are nothing short of my everything.    You inspire me every single day.  Thank you for showing me the way.

I love you.

As you continue to rock in this life, keep being who you are. And I promise that I will do the same.

Your inspired girlfriend,

Jacki

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Project Inspiration: Jacke “Dad” Carr

As I dig deep and look into who I really am, I look into who I invest my time with and how they have moved me in what I have called Project Inspiration.

I wanted to take this time to tell you how my father, Jacke Carr has inspired me and been a part of my life evolution, from the very beginning. You probably have one of these:  the do-anything-for-you-coach-all-your-little-league-teams-loudest-dude-in-the-crowd-fun-loving father.  Let’s compare notes…

Dear Dad,

You are the beginning.  There from the first breath, to the first step, at the first softball game, to the first car wreck, from college good bye to the roadtrip to California.  You’re my guy, Dad.

What I want to let you know is that who you are has and continues to shape who I am everyday.

You say ‘I love you’ every single time we hang up the phone.  Every time.  And knowing I am truly loved and cherished by my father is a gift no one else can give to a child.  Knowing you are loved unconditionally instills confidence, enables possibility, and empowers choice.  Thank you, Dad.  I commit to one day make my children feel the exact same way.

Softball, basketball, all the sports –  you are my head coach.  You taught me the skills, you taught me teamwork, and you taught me how to be a leader.  Thank you for being my coach on and off the playing field.  Who you are as a leader inspires me, drives me and keeps me seeking for greatness in myself and those around me.

Oh, how I hate to disagree with you.  You are such a passionate person which colors you such a vibrant human being.  That stubborn spark inspires me to be passionate in all areas of my life and fight the good fight.

You and Mom’s relationship is one for the books.  You are there for her, you love her endlessly, and you are her ultimate adventure.  I am inspired by you in that space, and I hope Chris and I will continue to celebrate life  just as you and Mom rock out your relationship.

Always up for an adventure, you are never one to sit on the sidelines of life.  Thank you for making sure I never take life too serious, that I am always up for a good time and for letting me get in trouble.  You are the life of the party.  Always.

I cannot imagine being a Dad to three girls ranging in ages of 27 to 13, but somehow you keep your cool.  I know you inspire A LOT of people out there with this one.  But for me, your ability to relate in the midst of tears, how you tolerate all the drama that is sisters, and maintain your dude-like and oh-so-macho dad-like character is the ultimate.   When given a life full of ladies that you might not have expected, you sure have done a great job raising radical kids.  Keep up the good work.

And last but not least, your laugh.  When I look back at those life moments that really move you, my favorite memories are filled with you and in the front seats of a mini van doing SNL impressions, pretending to eat the moon made out of cheese, and all of a sudden we are both laughing until the tears flow behind our glasses.  That whole-hearted laughter that moves you, shakes you to the present moment.  That ability to be present, laugh until you cry with your daughter and enjoy life reminds me that life is actually about the moments shared.  Slow down and laugh until you cry.

Thank you for giving me life. Thank you for loving me, Dad.  Thank you for inspiring me everyday to be confident in my choices, a leader in my own life, to take in the moments, expect the unexpected and be awesome.

As you continue to rock in this life, keep being who you are. And I promise that I will do the same.

Your Inspired daughter,

Jacki Carr

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