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Project Inspiration: Jacke “Dad” Carr

As I dig deep and look into who I really am, I look into who I invest my time with and how they have moved me in what I have called Project Inspiration.

I wanted to take this time to tell you how my father, Jacke Carr has inspired me and been a part of my life evolution, from the very beginning. You probably have one of these:  the do-anything-for-you-coach-all-your-little-league-teams-loudest-dude-in-the-crowd-fun-loving father.  Let’s compare notes…

Dear Dad,

You are the beginning.  There from the first breath, to the first step, at the first softball game, to the first car wreck, from college good bye to the roadtrip to California.  You’re my guy, Dad.

What I want to let you know is that who you are has and continues to shape who I am everyday.

You say ‘I love you’ every single time we hang up the phone.  Every time.  And knowing I am truly loved and cherished by my father is a gift no one else can give to a child.  Knowing you are loved unconditionally instills confidence, enables possibility, and empowers choice.  Thank you, Dad.  I commit to one day make my children feel the exact same way.

Softball, basketball, all the sports -  you are my head coach.  You taught me the skills, you taught me teamwork, and you taught me how to be a leader.  Thank you for being my coach on and off the playing field.  Who you are as a leader inspires me, drives me and keeps me seeking for greatness in myself and those around me.

Oh, how I hate to disagree with you.  You are such a passionate person which colors you such a vibrant human being.  That stubborn spark inspires me to be passionate in all areas of my life and fight the good fight.

You and Mom’s relationship is one for the books.  You are there for her, you love her endlessly, and you are her ultimate adventure.  I am inspired by you in that space, and I hope Chris and I will continue to celebrate life  just as you and Mom rock out your relationship.

Always up for an adventure, you are never one to sit on the sidelines of life.  Thank you for making sure I never take life too serious, that I am always up for a good time and for letting me get in trouble.  You are the life of the party.  Always.

I cannot imagine being a Dad to three girls ranging in ages of 27 to 13, but somehow you keep your cool.  I know you inspire A LOT of people out there with this one.  But for me, your ability to relate in the midst of tears, how you tolerate all the drama that is sisters, and maintain your dude-like and oh-so-macho dad-like character is the ultimate.   When given a life full of ladies that you might not have expected, you sure have done a great job raising radical kids.  Keep up the good work.

And last but not least, your laugh.  When I look back at those life moments that really move you, my favorite memories are filled with you and in the front seats of a mini van doing SNL impressions, pretending to eat the moon made out of cheese, and all of a sudden we are both laughing until the tears flow behind our glasses.  That whole-hearted laughter that moves you, shakes you to the present moment.  That ability to be present, laugh until you cry with your daughter and enjoy life reminds me that life is actually about the moments shared.  Slow down and laugh until you cry.

Thank you for giving me life. Thank you for loving me, Dad.  Thank you for inspiring me everyday to be confident in my choices, a leader in my own life, to take in the moments, expect the unexpected and be awesome.

As you continue to rock in this life, keep being who you are. And I promise that I will do the same.

Your Inspired daughter,

Jacki Carr

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Project Inspiration: Kristina Gong

As I dig deep and look into who I really am, I look into who I invest my time with and how they have moved me in what I have called Project Inspiration.

I wanted to take this time to tell you how one of my best friends, Kristina Gong has inspired me and been a part of my life evolution. You probably have one of these; the World-traveling-smart-Karaoke-singing-tech-saavy-loud-laughing-goal-oriented-cool best friends.  Let’s compare notes…

Dear Kristina,

We met while moving somewhat fast, breathing heavy and in need of water. While training for a marathon in sunny Santa Monica, California, our life paths crossed. My first memory was passing you on the boardwalk and you yelling, “hey, are you a soccer player or something?”. I get that all the time … big quads. Anyways, I yelled back “no” and just kicked it in and sped off.

From there on out, we were running partners. Then marathon finishers. And now, best friends.

What I wanted to let you know is that who you are has and continues to shape who I am.

You are such a commander of your life. Your decision to quit your job and travel the World for eight months the past year was and remains truly inspiring. Keep sharing! Find her story in video posts, here.

Your candid honesty is superior to any fluff some non-friend would provide to smooth a situation and encourages me to be honest in return and in all areas of my life.

You crave knowledge. You are so rich in culture by choice. And that choice is powerful. Thank you for sharing everything you learn with me and inspiring me to search for more.

You are wise beyond your years and you stand up for what you believe in. And wow, you karaoke a mean version of Gladys Knight’s “Midnight Train to Georgia”…nasty mean. In these moments, you are vulnerable, fearless and demanding – and I admire that.

You want to truly experience this life, laugh deep and loud in this life and be madly in love in this life. And that is someone I want to be around, talk to daily on gchat, go with to adventures places, sing far too loud with in the car, roll out my mat to yoga with, and call my best friend.

Thank you for allowing me space in your life. Thank you for inspiring me everyday to be in constant wonder of the World, to be adventurous, to be honest, to seek knowledge always, to laugh and sing way outloud, and to stand for what I believe in. 

As you continue to rock in this life, keep being who you are. And I promise that I will do the same.

Inspired,

Jacki Carr

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Adventure: Project Inspiration

I had a moment last night.  Or, it could be a culmination of moments in the past weeks in which I was really questioning, exploring and demanding answers of human possibility.  My own human possibility and who I want to be, who I am … for the World.

A Mumford & Sons song lyric played on repeat in my head:

“where you invest your love, you invest your life…”

So, I have decided to dive into the evolution of Jacki Carr and take a deeper look at where I have invested my life.

In doing so, the next adventures will be coined: Project Inspiration.

You’ll see….

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Adventure: a love story

During my daily stalk on facebook.com, I stumbled upon a status update that sparked a memory. It read:

“imagine how many people in the world are in love with others and it’s mutual but no one ever says it………….”

I pondered the provoking thought and thus, I will share my love story.

I met Chris Hynes in 2002 within the first few weeks of our college years at Indiana University. He was a baseball player, blue eyes, handsome, insightful, sensitive, listened to cool music….swoon.

See.

Anyways, he was in love with someone else. Go figure. And honestly, at that time in my life, I was on the ultimate freedom high. No parents, no rules, just right. Think exact opposite of what it means to be ‘grounded’.

What I am saying is, our spark had not lit just yet.  No basically meant, not yet.

Fast Foward

So fast forward 7 years and you will find Chris and I as close friends sitting in a small bar on the corner of some cute street in Brentwood, California. We were eating dinner at the bar, sipping red wine and catching up. Chris was in visiting me from Chicago.

The bartenders and waiters immediately loved us. “Here, taste this wine”, “oh, how about this one”… And somewhere in the midst of all the tasting, long distance friendship and conversation, the restaurant had closed and there we were hanging out with the whole restaurant crew after hours. Laughing. Smilling. Happy. The nagging reminder that Chris and I were running a 10K in Santa Monica the next morning was slowly washed away, literally.

Finally, Chris and I pry ourselves away from our new best friends and wine connoisseurs. I lived a couple blocks away, so we cross the street, holding hands heading home. Reminder, all those sips of wine can get the best of you and BOOM, there I go.  I trip and fall down. I know, really attractive sprawled across the LA concrete. However, I am in stiches laughing and Chris bends down to help me up.

He kisses me.

And all of the sudden, I just burst out:

“I love you!”

Wait, let me paint the picture: as you know I am sprawled on the ground, somewhat drunk on red wine but also drunk off the past two hours of the amazing connection and energy between us. The words erupt up and out of my mouth like a Jack in the Box and I immediately clasp both hands over my mouth, shocked at what I just said. Chris’ big blue eyes are staring at me in this moment-mixture of disbelief, shock and a pinch of awkward.

I shrug and admit, “I do, I do” in this high pitched, painfully happy, honest and almost apologetic way.

And there it is. My ‘holy shit i love you’ love story.

I put my big red heart out there and fell in love outloud.

To this day, I still rub it in Chris’ face that I told him the grandiose “i love you” first!

And, I am so happy.

love

 
So in response to that facebook post, put your big read heart out there.  Love and be loved.

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